Wad a feeling.

CNY gathering @ Jason's hse wif the groupie. And i din expect to see someone dere too but luckily i was told beforehand. At least am mentally prepared.

The atmosphere in between us was somehow weird till i tried to break e silence only hours later. For a few moments i wished i cud jus disappear when my heart thumped. Dis gonna be the very last time. Possible? For the whole nite i jus don feel easy. My mind was full of thoughts. Disappointing and unhappy.

Din wanted to go home early so went KBox wif Wentao, Dickson, Weijie, Victoria & Zanyan.
K-ed till 4am den mac brekkie.

Home sweet home @ ard 5plus.

Happy Lunar New Year!!

Was so looking forward to CNY. Yup! finally the long awaited day has arrived. Had a whole lot of my fave yummies - especially the pineapple tarts, shark fins soup, homemake tang yuan. Spent a great time wif my cousins and some catching up.

As usual, went to pray before the routined visits. Yet this CNY is somehow different. It felt different. Partly bcos grandpa wasn't around wif us. Having new members in our big family and oso bcos of certain reasons, some din turn up. So so so different compared to the past.

And i was wondering why......

Now.. CNY seems to be a day for giving & receiving red packets, eating goodies, wearing new clothes, gambling (hah! im not the least interested anyway), gathering jus for the sake of gathering bcos its cny? CNY seems to be losing its significance to me.

Left ard 9plus to meet my frens.

I dunno why did i agree to go in the first place. I tot i cud handle it well dis time but i tink i screwed it up again. Silence. Awkwardness.

I still need lotsa courage and time. And i have only myself to blame for bringing back the dreadful feeling.

This CNY gonna etched in my memory.

Shopping and shopping

Dis week is real tiring. Going out after sch almost everyday. Stuffs to buy for cny is almost done except for a bag.

Sat 14th Jan
Did a lil shopping @ orchard wif e gers. Bought a butterfly belt. Shopped ard till 4plus den decided to head hm. Energy totally used up alr.

Fri 13th Jan
Tot can finally stay home to rest after sch but mommy wanted to go chinatown. Sis and i accompanied her dere. Super crowded. Din reali getta enjoy myself cos very tired alr. Reached hm almost 12am. Angry leh. Told my mommy tat i wanna reach hm by 11 so tat can rest early. Argh. Nex week am not gonna kena pull out by her.

Thu 12th Jan
Had to do an interview wif Nana's aunty for our HR project. Before e interview we went to shop around @ City Plaza. The stuffs dere are not tat bad actually jus tat hafta reali look into it. Thou it's wholesale but e pricing is not tat cheap either.

Wed 11th Jan
Went out wif my mommy and sis to do a lil shopping @ TM & CS. Bought a pair of boots similar to e one tat i saw @ far east. Hahas. Seems tat when i giv up on e stuffs i wanted to buy i'd get it eventually.

Retail therapy is never enuff

After sch.. my gers & i chop chop finish our short discussion & off to town. Our stomachs grumbled & rumbled while waiting for tat ryan-the-bag-of-bones.


Lunch-ed @ Cine - Pastamania. Our pasta tasted kinda bland. Ain't as yummy as before.

Went to Far East & Icon wif Nana.Anne.Mabel.Ryan. Was searching for boots but to no avail. Guess am gonna get heels instead. Icon was reali great. Lotsa good buys. Saw lotsa pretty dresses dere. Planned to look for few tops & skirts/jeans instead of dresses since we hav searched almost all of e shops @ far east & heeren but none were nice. Until Nana spotted e dresses @ icon. Woo~

Bought tube dresses/necklaces/jacket.

Good buys. Especially e necklaces. Unique & nice. Got many diff designs & colors. and it's awfully cheap. 3 of us bought 2 each. Gonna go back for more. Thankies to Anne who spotted e shop. And of cos her boy who brought us to icon. Kinda fascinated when i stepped into e building. Too bad not all e shops are open thou. Some shops are still empty.

The 2 necklaces tat i bought. Fancy e 2nd one lots.

Finally got myself sth for cny. Great. But its pretty sad cos am awfully broke now. Hopefully daddy gonna sponsor my heels/belt/jeans/bag etc etc.

Another round of retail therapy on thur?!

So much to buy yet so lil to spend.


Those bad memories seem to be coming back again.
It has been a year but why are those hurtful words
and painful feeling still so vivid to me
as if it happened yesterday.

don wanna cry to sleep again.

maybe i'll get over it. someday. somehow.

i.love.and.hate.morning.lessons

For e past 5ive days, its reali a torment pulling my arse outta bed. Wakie as early as six thanks to Nana's morning call to make sure am on time for sch everyday. But still i wud laze on my bed for about 20-30mins den chop chop prepare and off to meet her. And our most important meal of the day - Breakfast.

For the past few days i felt so so so tired...

Sat 7th Jan
Had Mac fan-tastic burger wif e gers after sch. And guess wad? It gonna be one of our case study for POMkting so tot of tasting it. Wondered if its true la. Tats wad e lecturer said during his first lesson. As usual. For all lessons, every lecturer starts to mention about exams and projects. Here comes e routine again. Dis sem gonna be very very rush for projects. So many PHs in between. And dis coming tue is a PH. Reached home almost 4pm and watch e idol drama for e whole day.

Fri 6th Jan
Tot of going MOS wif Nana & co. but eventually i din bcos i fall sick again. Omg. Guess its due to e weather and e sudden tuning of my bio clock. Went home after sch and slept till e nex morning. Kinda disappointed tat din able to go wif Nana cos its e very very FIRST time NANA TAN jio clubbing k. Everytime ask her go machiam wan her life lidat. Dis time she so willingly club bcos her good fren's charm is so powderful. LOL. Anyway heard from her tat MOS is fun (she was darn high) so tot of going nex wed or thur ba.. Well.. dis time Nana agreed to go wif us. WhEe~

Thur 5th Jan
Rolled to town wif Nana to meet Kaili -- she has a very cutesy tummy. Love to rub her tummy. Hahas. Main objective was to accompany Kaili to shop for clothes for cny. Nana & i got ourselves a top too. Roamed till 9plus den home sweet home.

Wed 4th Jan
Went to No Signboard for dinner wif my family. Awesome. The black pepper crab is yummie. But i love e salad you tiao best. And had my fave dua tao (mussels), kang-kong, stir fried deer meat wif ginger & spring onion (e meat is so tender), kailan & tofu (i dunno wif wad sauce. it tasted funny to me). Wanted to hav beancurd @ you tiao da wang but ate till so ceng. argh. Went to Chinatown and shopped awhile.

Tue 4rd Jan
Had Mac on e first day of sch but it was a wrong choice. My tummy din feel well for e whole day after tat. Guess its bcos of e iced milo. Went to kbox wif Nana, Da Sean, Andy & Chap after sch. K for 5ive hrs den dragged our tired bones home. Had a quick dinner, bathed and zZz..

Hopefully dis week gonna hav more time @ home. Been missing out on tv and online. Din even hav e energy to watch my shows for e whole week.

*rolls off to tattyland*

A whole new beginning.

Its 2006. Hopefully its gonna be a great and fruitful year. I wudnt say 2005 was bad but it wasnt great either. I wanna hav a good new start. Shudnt look back anymore.

Countdown for new year aint as fun as xmas afterall. Went to work for an event wif Nana, Pam (nana's sis), Lydia & co. Supposed to work till 1am but we were allowed to leave @ 11plus instead. Anyway during the whole event we were slacking. Then stayed on to watch the fireworks.

My new year resolutions ::
- lose fats
- exercise? its been ages since i last exercise
- do sth to my laziness? i hav a bag of lazy bones
- time management - be more punctual?
- concentrate during lessons
- no Donkey for grades
- more gatherings wif 2475
- lesser MIA
- lesser clubbing sessions
- reduce smoking
- type faster den eddie in msn!!

Got back my results. Passed my supp. Glad BS is finally over.

For nex sem am having morning classes for all lessons. 6 days a week. Oh my.. Hafta turn back my bio clock. Anyway am looking forward to bk & mac breakfasts.

Cant wait for CNY. Pineapple tarts and all goodies!! Yummie~

*rolls off to watch idol drama*