Dun.phunk.wif.my.h e a r t

Back from Black.

Tonite's music wasnt tat nice. Quite b o r e d.

Met Kor & co. ard 11. Went up but da music sux so decided to go mac to chill awhile. As usual, Pauline never fails to suan and irritate me. A veri 'nice' sista i haf. Went up again and stayed awhile. Kor & co. left quite early bcos xn nidda buy mc. Left me dere to wait for Pauline to fetch me home. Saw da same crowd. Hana was dead drunk till she almost cudnt recog me. Jiefeng, his gf, Kenny & co. were at black too. Joined dem for some drinks.

As promised, Pauline came back to fetch me @ 3am. wHee~ First time got a bike ride home.

Tmr gonna be a good ger and accom mommy till nite. Heh heh.. Most prob gers' nite out wif my colleagues - Winnie & co. dbl O. Winnie jio-ed club momo on sat. Cute name.. Its a new club. She emphasized to me tat its 3 times bigger den chinablack. Interesting. Worm jio-ed black on sat and mr.Ivan will be celebrating his bdae @ black on sat too. Happening black on sat?

No, no, no, no, don't phunk with my heart

No, no, no, no, don't phunk with my heart

I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love, baby (in love, baby)
I wonder if I take you home
Would you still be in love, baby (in love, baby)

And its early Morning 6 o'clock!!

I nid my yummie sleep.

*crawls off to yummieland*

Recalling...

Quick recap for da past week..

Tue: Shag-ed and moody nite. Sleep sleep and sleep. As if i haf been casted by a sleeping spell. Supposed to go to da pub wif Mei & co. but i felt so jellish da whole day. Alas, stayed home to rot. Wakie by Shar @ 6pm. Chatted on da fone and at da same time surprised me wif her new updates. I missed her. And i noe wif her around, everytink seems so rite. Thou at times she reali irritates me alot but at da end of day, i still love her. While chatting wif her, i rmb her advices she gave me months ago. Diff pple, same advices but still i din heed. I shud haf listened to her long ago. Her reasonings and reassurance reali helped me alot. Nex wed gonna mit up wif her & co. I got so much to tell her and she nids some naggings from me. wHee~ Had my dinner den went back to sleep again till midnite. Went to 444 for supper again.

Mon: Met Dal in da afternoon and went for dental appt. Ice-skating. Thanks to my 2 coaches - Weijie and Ian, else i'll be falling umpteen times. The rest were having ice war and falling war. Tried veri hard to avoid dem but still, i was invoved in da lata part. Damnit. Bruises everywhere. But luckily my face not swollen. Nex, dinner @ chomp chomp. Had satay, wu xiang, stingray, veggie, cockles, and i-dunno-wads-it-called. But da last dish was a disappointment. Jason say its not fresh at all so da uncle prepared another plate for us but still da same. First time eat cockles feel so pampered. Vanessa and Jason were busy un-shelling da cockles for all of us. And of cos, not forgetting da super BIG cup of sugercane. Super thirsty too.
Y u m m i e l i c i o u s dinner.

Sun: Wakie by my sweetie at 2pm. Wash up and prepared den off to compass point to mit up wif Mei, Weijie and Dada. Went to work after tat. Super cocked up at work. Felt so bad to trouble rin, dada and my other 2 colleagues. Phew. Nearly missed da last bus. Thanks to my 2 colleagues. Reached pasir ris safely and waited for my job consultant. So n i c e of him to get da timesheets from me. Finally passed him my timesheet so tat i dun nidda travel all da way down to raffles. Heh heh.. Supper @ 444. Super hungry after work. Only had mac for da whole day. duh..

Sat: Mit Rinz @ orchard and accompany her to far east to trim her hair. Den off to mit Dada to report for work. First day. So nervous. Luckily got dem to guide me thru. Everytink went well. After work, i was super duper hungry and shag-ed. Supper @ hougang. Lastly, off to my sweetie's house. Cudnt slp thou veri tired. Thanks to da fone call and happily drifted to tattyland.

Fri: Celebrated Wentao and Dada's bdae. Dinner @ marina south den ktv @ ecp. Peeps present - Rinz, Dada, Roland, Wentao, Dickson, Weijie, Jason, Vanessa, Chantel, Ian, Zan, Verlin, Jiewei, David. Supposed to be a veri happy occasion but turned out to be quite an emo one. Overall, everyone still enjoyed i guessed. LOL. I mus refrain from listening tat song boy.. Initially, everytink was so fine till tat very moment, i jus cudn't control myself. Rinz was rite. I love ya huggies. And thanks peeps (u noe who ur), i'll bear tat in mind. *winks*

Thu: Not a good day. Rotted whole day den went downstairs to slack. Rant and rant till morning...

Wed: Played pool wif Dal, Chantel and Jason. I mus say i've a veri good teacher. LOL. Met up wif Kyle & co. and off to Black. Quite boring thou. Chantel went to Devil's for awhile to drink. 0mg~ I tink her body consists more of alcohol den water. Had ba chor mee for supper.

Tue: After some time, finally met up wif Vivi and Andy. Went to coffeebean to slack. Listened alot. Crapped alot. Laffed alot.

It doesnt matter anymore

So much feelings bottled up inside and i nidda vent it all out..

For da past 2 weeks.. My emotions are so unstable. Unpredictable. I may be laffing dis moment and tearing da nex moment. Oh b0y.. Its driving me mad. Cant even control myself. Tinks are getting beta now after all da advices and long toks. Come to tink of it, wad am goin thru now is all bcos of my obstinacy.

Well.. But i definitely dun deserve all dis from U. Wad wrong haf i done to receive all dis craps from U?! U din even bother to tell me. U jus kept silent. Till da extent tat i wondered if u still rmb my existence. I've been self-consoling myself for da state we're in now. Maybe ya contradicted now. Maybe u dun wanna hurt me no more. And u gotta make a choice. A choice which u yaself dunno if u will ever regret in future. Notink from u for da past 3 days. I supposed today will be da fourth day too. Are u giving yaself time to tink bout us? Or so happily happily enjoying yaself? And u jus gonna kept me dangling in da middle of nowhere for all u like? Its so tiring to guess wads actually on ya mind. Wadeva ya choice is, thou i noe da outcome gonna be a negative one, dis time round am gonna accept it. Its jus only a matter of time when u gonna initiate it again. Not gonna react like how i did for da past 2 times. Its useless and pointless. Only a fool wud make da same mistake twice. I was. But i wont allow myself to be a fool again. Perhaps u were right in da past tat we're not meant to be but i wasnt convinced. For da past few days, i've been tinking back.. So much memories of us.. Replaying and replaying on my mind. Be it happy or sad. Those were da days.. Da times on how we gotta noe each other and got together eventually. Stupig-idiot smses and mms. Late nite chats on msn. Mac tv. McCafe @ ecp. Love contract. Gu dan bei ban qiu. My 19th bday. Ya kun toast. 150904. Somerset. Tatty e-cards. Ur warm hugs. Sweet lil'morning smses which never failed to brighten up my day. Lil'encouragement wheneva dere's exams or tests. Midnite movies @ tm. 100 ferrero rocher. Sakae sushi. Changi. Our first month. Ben. Dan. Tattyland. And i loved wednesdays ever since.

I realised all dis time i was so naive. I tot we can go back to wad we were during da 4mths togther. Those were da happiest moments of my life. It was like a fairytale tat happened to me. In actual fact, we werent like before and will never be da same again. It was da old U whom i've been waiting and missing all along. Sadly, he never came back and will never be back ever since he walked away da very first time. People reali do change. U and me are no exceptions. We haf changed too. U haf successfully convinced me tat we are not meant to be afterall and it will never gonna work out for us. For all da pain u gave reali taught me alot. Ur da one who held me up and let me fall again and again. Wad u said in msn da day before we got back again is so irony. I dun feel secure. I dun get attention from u. U've got a new lifestyle and simply enjoying it. We dun haf basic mutual communication.

So glad tat Tattyland once existed. It will be one of my important chapters learnt in life. Thanks for everytink. Everytink.

The ger.

She is contradicted. She seems to expect alot from him. She gets jealous easily. She's sensitive. She's petty. She's unreasonable. She throws tantrums as and when she likes. She's treating him not rite. And when da hell did she becum so possessive? She's changed. Did she change for da beta or worst?

Da happiness he once gave her was so much simpler and innocent. In da past.. It was insecurity. Now? It involves so much more den tat. But she's no longer afraid to face him and cud open up to him. She cud tell him her feelings more openly compared to da past. She feels more comfortable wif him now. Tinks between dem haf changed too. Wud it be beta if time cud turn back to months ago? Are tinks gettin beta compared to da past or did it get worse?

Seeing and hearing bout tinks turns her off. Wad she cud do is open one eye and close one eye. She's has been doin tat all along. But tinks seems to get out of control. Her emotions alwaz overcome her. Hence, she reacts in a way tat she herself din wanted it too. At times, she knew she's at fault but she's jus too stubborn to gib in.

Someone asked her, "Can u still tolerate?" Hah.. Tolerate? It sounds so miserable. Has she been doin tat all dis time? If it is so.. Wud she get mentally wear out one day? I guess she and he shud compromise.

Someone told her, "I tink u changed alot. Ur not tat innocent ger i used to noe. I guess u haf lotsa probs u kip to urself."

Innocent? How innocent can she be after all da tinks tat happened ard her? She has to grow up. She cant be tat weak ger no more. I tot she grew stronger alr. I was totally wrong.

He and she finally came dis far after all da hurdles. I guess dere's still more for dem.. He disappointed her twice. Told her da same tinks twice. The ger is jus so afraid to fall for da third time. She's jus a simple ger wants to be loved, pampered and a simple relationship. Da pain she felt wasnt a wound tat cud be healed as time goes by. For she's scarred badly. She's has fallen far too deep down alr. Perhaps rite from da start, she shud haf a limit for herself. But dere's no turning back for her. When she fell.. She fell apart and lived in total darkness. Nevertheless, she still held onto it, not willing to move on. Convincing herself dere's still hopes for dem. Believing tat he wudnt haf a change in feelings. How silly can she be.. Simply bcos notink can be compared to da happiness feeling when's she wif him. He's da source tat kips her goin all dis long..

Given her character.. She wudnt perserve for so long. She wudnt bother so much. She wudnt gib her all. Was it him or their love tat changed her?

She's no longer da ger whom i tot she was. I haf never understand her actually.

Finally!!

Hohoho.. Da loreal job has finally came to an end. Can stay home shake leg for da time being den look for another job. Heh heh..

Ytd was Waffle's Day! Met up wif Winnie, Vivi, Kim and Andy @ Ajisen. Becos got 2 yao gui.. Vivi and Winnie.. den proceed to Gelare @ TM. Cookies and cream ice-cream.. Yummy.. Slacked for awhile at Mac den Marcus send us home..

Last weekend wasnt tat bad thou my fever was on and off. Worst.. My boy happily happily went for holiday. Still enjoyed myself thanks to my sweeetie Joey.. Went to her fren's ktv pub at bq on friday.. Opening day. Still having a'lil fever tatz y din even touch a single drop of alcohol. Sang a few songs nia. Quite paiseh.. Hahas. Den Vivi, Nixion, Andy and Beng came. Da pub was veri crowded so da foursome went to Eski bar to chill instead. It was cool.. Temperature more cool.. Its negative. Hahas.. While waiting for Tony and Champ to reach. Dere was quite a number of cops along da road. Joey and i din realised it till 'He' asked one of da waitresses for her IC. Was kinda surprised thou cos Joey and i noticed dis guy. Tot he's one of those hooligans. Lil did we noe he was a cop actually. And.. da nex moment.. Joey was mad.. LOL. Left da pub @ 3am den went for supper. Pathetic supper. Shud haf gone for bak kut teh instead of prata. I regretted it. Seriously. And we din haf prata. Oni went to da prata shop and ate sth else. Joey and da 2 guys were crappy. Lame to da max. Hahas. So long my dear enjoyed herself is good enuff. I wan her to be happy everyday.

KTV on sat. Chantel, Dal, Wentao, Dickson, Zan and me. My dear din go bcos it was kinda inconvenient for her. After da ktv session we went to lailai. Saw Jenny, Jasmine and Binghan dere too. Dal taught me how to play pool. Learn so many times still not up to standard. Hungry and super tired. Went back to pasir ris to mit Jason and had our BREAKFAST before heading home. Reached home ard 630. Seh-ed. Slept for bout 5ive hours and left for work. Cud hardly open my eyes at work tat day. Saw Chantel at her workplace too.. Her eyes oso super small. LOL. After work chop chop went home and SLEEP.

Black tonite!!

Great day @ work.

Reached my workplace @ 130pm. Yes. Late again.

Well.. Why bother. Nobodi did anyway. Bcos so coincidentally is tat freako #2's off day.

Da first person i saw when i stepped into da store was Debbie. Hahas. Den i went to bump into her and gave her a fright. She tot which customer so rude. LOL. Anny! Of all da freakos. I saw da #1 freako first. OK. Nvm. Sign in and stuffs. WeeEe.. All of dem worked today except for Lee yen. Dey told me lotsa stuffs tat happened during da period when am away. Jokes. LOL. Cant stop laffing. Cant believe my ears when dey say.. Someone was dancing (spinning) in da store. Ballet summore. On witnessing tat scene, Kristine and Fong yin nearly pengz in da store. And so much more. I guess she got some kinda am-in-only-me-myself-and-i-world attitude.

As i was sorting out da receipts, i saw Debbie in a distance so i happily happily walked towards her and my head still looking down on da receipts. Telling her how good those bedok staffs were and all tat. Den when i looked up she gave me those funni funni expression like i din sth wrong. I shot her a blur look back. Den deb looked at elaine who was standing a short distance away. She witnessed everytink. Hahas. I reali done sth wrong. Deb was actuali serving a customer. Sorry deb.. I din do it on purpose la. It was partially tat customer's fault too. She was squatting behind da stand which was infront of me. She was totally blocked. How to look out for her?! LOL

Da other 3 freakos were on shift too. Changed. Jus only din see her for 6 days. Anny's attitude seemed to haf change for da beta. More smiles. Beta toking attitude. Kinda surprised tat she din raise her voice nor sarcastic remarks when she saw kristine and i chatting. Den again she saw debbie and i were chatting. She jus simply smiled. 0mg~ Is tat Anny?! Unbelievable. Maybe she's in super duper goodie mood. Lets see how it goes for da nex few days.

Today's lunch break was definitely fun. 6 of us went together. Debbie, Elaine, Kristine, Serena, Fang U and Me. Hahas. Da store gonna be so empty and quiet without us. Jus as wad i wanted, I had my fave sliced fish soup. Its an addiction. Kristine even threatened to smack me cos da first tink i told her was i missed da sliced fish soup instead of dem when she called me da nite before to double confirm if am goin back to TM. LOL.

As i was counting down. Again. Kinda happy cos da job is so tiring. Sad bcos i'll be seeing da gers so so so much lesser. Tmr is Elaine's last day and she will be back to sch for her attachment. Debbie gonna work till end of dis month and she mite be goin back to m'sia. As for Kristine.. I guess mitting up wif her is easier. Cos she's a frequent clubber. Hahas. Sometimes its not tat u dun make da effort to meet up but everyone simply got their own life to lead, their own stuffs to be busy wif, and da other party mite not be free when ur. Dere's good and bad for doin temp jobs. Am alwaz takin up temp jobs else job hopping. Simply bcos i cant stay for long for in any job. Tatz good for having temp jobs and i getta make alot of new frens. But da bad point is tat its hard to reali stay in contact. Suddenly. I tot of Jessica. Jannies and Yuki.

Shidah, Yan dear, Mousy's dearie Mag mag, Lisa and my assy Ah kok gonna be back to sch tmr. My catsy Brian will be having his attachment. Hopefully everytink's gonna goes well and no sucky lecturers nor colleagues. Reunion of S.E.S. Greaattt. Was chatting wif my baobei sis - Stephie on msn earlier on. Memories. Happy. Hilarious. Stupig. Unforgettable. Laughters. Tears. IT canteen. Chicken stewed rice. Fish chips. Lectures during yr 1.1. Boy-i-wanna-marry-u joke. Ah guang madness. Slacker mode. Feminine. Hair color. Supercut. Energy. 0h boy~ Suddenly i tot of steph's 'Edison'. Hahas. He definitely cant be compared to Edison. His attitude sux. His thinking sux. U mus be agreeing wif wad i said. Hahas. Xiaobai. Hows ya xiaobai.. Tatz crazy. Bcos of ya xiaobai. 0mg~ Did sth on impulse. I shudnt haf. Maybe. But tinks are so much beta for xiao an (if u rmb.. urs is sapporo) and me now. We got our own happiness afterall.

So muchie to catch up wif S.E.S. Jus hours away only. Hahas.

Argh. i tink am gonna fall sick soon. Flu.

Sleep.

*waiting for him in tattyland*

WeEe. heehee. argh. gRr.

Am gonna be back to TM. Happy and sux feelings.

Pros and cons.

Elaine. Debbie. Kristine. Lee yen. *muacks*
The foursome.
Sliced fish soup.
Rotiboy.
Snap snap.
Crapping.
Bitching.

Sucky and freaking idiotic management.
Anny. Fong Yin. John. Danny. *pukes*
Being watched.
Restrictions.
Nosey.
Scoldings.

Counting down...

8 more days.

Back to blog.

Been busy wif my job and chilling out wif my sweeties.. Left wif bout a week plus and am freed from da stupig job. To make it worst, Ernie swopped locations among Emma, Linda and me. Simply means am no longer working wif Elaine and Debbie. Sad-ed. Time used to pass so much faster working wif dem. I missed da sliced fish soup and having rotiboy wif debbie. Kristine is transferred back to TM too. So darn boring and lonely without my gers. Guess wad.. Am alwaz counting my stocks over and over again, climbing up and down to replenish stocks and walking from one end to da other jus to kill time. Argh. But one tink good bout here is da management is so so so much beta compared to TM. Or shud i say TM's management sux to da core. Nobodi can stand da management dere. I tink only da trainee manager is good. So good till he alwaz kana bullied. Working at dere machiam a jail-bird. Gotta report to those idiots whenever u wanna step out of da store. Even if u wanna go wee-wee. 0h my.. Wad if am so so so urgent but i hafta look for dem and tell dem i nid da ladies and i still gotta walk a distance to da ladies. I tink by den can save all da trouble alr. LOL. Anyway dere wont be sucha scenario. Am jus crapping. Too bias against dem alr. I guess no matter how we complain to ernie, he jus wont swop us back. He's simply stuPIG.

Endure, endure and endure. Its gonna be over real soon.

Lazy worm came down to accompany me for lunch and bought a box of hairdye from me. wo0~ Intro-ed me da yummielicious chicken rice. Tatz was terribly full.. Cudnt haf my rotiboy after tat. The aroma is so TEMPTING. Well, i shall haf it tmr. Heh heh..

Usually, after work i wud mit up wif my enjoyment kakis but i haf not seen dem for a week. Only till ytd, finally met up wif my dearie Joey. Went KTV! wif my boy, Joey, Erin, Roland, Weijie and Joseph. Definitely had a great time. I even had a funni dream after da ktv session. Haha. Initially planned to go Rouge wif Jesi & co. but ktv is more t.e.m.p.t.i.n.g. Hiak hiak.. Not reali in da mood to club actually tatz y went ktv instead. Finally got to mit up wif sweetie Erin. She's plain crazy. Cud hear her giggling non-stop when we met up last wed. LOL

Called Winnie ytd and got to noe tat i wont be seeing my r&b kaki in black wif me for a pathetic month. Last wed she cudnt go bcos she sprained her ankle. And now. LOL. Dunno shud laff or sad for u. Haha. Nvm. We can haf retail therapy and drinking sessions instead. *winks*

And my lesbie is finally backie.. But she's gonna MIA again. OK. So nice of her. LOL

My dearie is so sweet. She felt it. Perhaps i was tinking too much. Kinda tired and abit unreasonable actually. Time will tell and heal everytink. U too.. Muz take tinks veriii slowly.. Its simply all bout TIME.

*rolling to tattyland*

Juz another boring post.

Haf not been blogging lately simply bcos am lazy and no mood to do so. But dis post gotta be up somehow bcos of my lesbie..

Hmmm.. Been busy wif work and my enjoyment kakis.. Yes. I got a new job. Dis time is so much beta den da previous one.. But da sad tink is Vivi isn't stationed at da same location as me.. Sometimes i do enjoy my work but sometimes its irritating.. Being at work is stressful bcos of da sales target.. Argh. Tatz so unlike me.. Its juz a temp job oni. But bcos of da commission.. Am workin hard for it but i guess juz a few days oni am lagging alr.. Losing interest alr? LOL.. But somehow its fun too and i haf nice colleagues.. Its great to haf my dinner kaki - Elaine. Whenever we not happy at work, sure complain and gossip to each other. Da management is juz so freaking idiotic.

Almost everynite is chilling and late nite suppers.. C.A.N cafe, Mc Cafe, Dua Pek Kong @ Loyang to pray pray, Changi Village to see 'mei nu', Sushi Tei, prawning @ jurong, suppers @ west coast & geylang, waffle day @ ecp gelare, shopping @ mustafa and clubbing.

2nd May Monday
We played shi zhi lu kou but wasnt those 'lian zhi' kind. Instead we were like rounding ard sg to eat yummies. Participants are Rae, Vivi, Winnie, Joey, Nixion, Edwin, Beng, Andy, Kevin and me.

First stop was Katong laksa but den it was closed so we proceed to Rocher for beancurd. Da beancurd is quite nice.. Rae and me shared a bowl of cold beancurd.. She was sick tat nite.. Not much appetite too.. Joey is super duper hungry tat nite.. She had a bowl all by herself. Den we went to Whampoa market for fried oyster.. Suay-ed. Closed again. Second successful stop was Bak kut teh @ Balestier. Joey is reali can one.. She had a bowl of rice and bak kut. And she's still hungry k.. (Joey: dun worry. Tat nite is notink compared to Winnie.. She can be crowned as yao gui queen. Winnie is more powderful. She proved it to me on waffle's day) Nex we went to Geylang for 'tian ji zhou'. Initially was like, Rae, Winnie and me dun dare to eat but after tasting.. Heh heh.. Winnie and i enjoyed it. But i oni dare to eat da legs oni. Da sauce is YUMMY. Tasted like my fave 'gong bao ji ding' sauce. After tat we went to 511 bedok for stingray and mee sua. A total of 5 dishes oni. But poor rae, she doesnt eat laksa, fried oyster, 'tian ji zhou' and mee sua. But she did taste da 'tian ji zhou' and felt guilty. She dun eat sotong oso. Her choice of food is limited. Dey even planned to haf fear factor da nex time round.. My goodness.. And i noe one of da dishes is most of us dislike - Smelly beancurd.. gRr.

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Heh.. Read ya bloggie.. I noe ya intentions meant well.. And i reali appreciated ya concern. Maybe someday i'll heed ya advice.. I was more den happy to haf a fren who reali cared. Yes. Am missing those late nite chats wif u on msn. Sometimes we even crapped till early morning.. Do u noe tat u were equally entertaining and irritating on tat gloomy nite..? Actually not oni tat nite i guess, its almost everytime when we mit up and even on msn. And our lil 'secret' which never failed to irritate me upon hearing it. I hate tat L word. I tink somehow ya like Mr P so irritating juz like how he alwaz irritate his bros. 0h my.. Anyway, I enjoyed and still enjoying ya accompany. My lil toot toot lesbie.. *Huggies*

*rolls off to tattyland*