Argh. Slept for 12hrs and am still so tired.. So lazy.. Slept too much alr? Made me feel so nua da whole day.. Din even haf da mood to step out of my room.. So i rotted at home da whole day.. Dread of staying at home too.. Alwaz quarel wif my sis wheneva am at home.. Its not tat i wanna quarel.. Juz cant find any reason why is she alwaz so unhappy.. I tink we haf not been tokin nicely to each other for weeks.. Da only way we communicated was shouting at each other.. And after tat she wud slam my door darn hard.. Omg~ I tink my door gonna break soon.. Its like a'lil loose.. Reali.. I went to compare it wif da other doors.. Seriously! i dun enjoy havin conflicts wif her.. Juz simply dunno how to communicate well wif her.. So irritated by her.. Den daddy came to haf a tok wif me bout her.. Told me alot on relationships among human beings.. Be it kinship or frenship.. He used my current sitiuation as examples.. Ya.. Wad daddy said make sense.. Made me realise alot.. I realized how stubborn i was too.. But still.. I chose to do it my way even thou i noe how foolish i am.. And he wud alwaz tell me dis.. Jie mei you jin shi mei lai shi.. (we mite be sistaz for dis lifetime but not in da nex life).. No matter how one person has to give in.. Else da relationship will never work out well.. I used to tink.. Given her character, no way for her to give in.. Den why muz i alwaz be da one to give in? Tatz absolutely NOT fair.. But after giving some thots i started to tink alot.. Bonds between human-to-human are never easy and simple to build up.. I realized tat i haf lived wif my sis for more den a decade but da relationship we haf is not as good as da relationship i haf wif my frens whom i haf known less den a decade.. I used to tink tat we juz cant get along but now am starting to believe it isnt dis way.. Perhaps like wad my daddy said.. Why din i put myself in her shoes and tink bout why did she react dis way? Dere muz be a reason to everytink tat happened.. I guess nobodi wud wan to feel unhappy unless provoked.. Bcos sheng qi hui hen rong yi lao (anger makes one easy to grow old).. Time do play a major part but i guess da both of us juz din put in effort..
We used to be on veri good terms when we were younger but it seems to get worse as we grow older.. Perhaps i din spend quality time wif her all dis time.. I dunno wadz on her mind.. And to make it worst.. Since young she's da kind who never speak up wadz on her mind.. She expect u to noe wadz she tinking and wad she wants.. Else i juz cant make peace wif her.. Perhaps i used to take her presence for granted.. So wheneva she gives attitude i dun bother to find out where da problem lies tinkin tat she will get over it soon.. So why bother.. Juz let her cool down for days or so den tok to her.. Years passed and her temper is getting worse.. Even after a few days of cold war she still wont make peace.. Argh!! Tatz one of da worst feeling one can get.. I tink am experiencing da kinda feeling which someone used to get it from me.. Now i noe how terrible someone felt at tat point of time.. Wad goes around comes around..
Went to sentosa wif Jess and Vivi ytd.. Met up wif 4 other gers at siloso beach.. So much wanted to get a tan BUT it rained.. Rained heavily summore.. Vivi more kelian.. It was a veri veri last min decision of hers to join us at sentosa.. She went home to get changed den took cab down to mit us.. Wasted trip.. She cud haf stayed home and sleep but she went to sentosa instead and had mee goreng.. lolx..
Rained, rained and rained.. Left sentosa at 3pm.. Saw jenny and her fren on our way out.. Wasted trip for all of us.. Sianzation to da max.. Hopefully it wun rain on our nex trip to sentosa..
Vivi suggested C.A.N cafe to slack.. Nice place to slack and sleep.. I fell asleep at dere and vivi had to self- entertain till andy finally came.. Vivi was happily happily snapping pix of her newly bought my melody stickers and played poker cards all by herself.. And she got too bored of self-entertaining when i woke up da second time, she threatened to throw ciggy butt and da stool on me.. FIERCE! No choice but to stay awake.. Played some lame card games wif vivi and andy till vivi's boy reached.. Went to haf our dinner at da coffeeshop.. Kim and Marcus came lata.. Our 2 new members.. Kimthony and Marilyn.. Den we went to ktv.. Oso to celebrate kim's 21st bdae.. Too bad Winston and Joe Black din join us.. Last nite ktv session seemed soooo longgg.. Time seemed to pass veri slow..
It wud be an enjoyable day if it din rained in da afternoon and i din feel well.. Almost falling sick.. Guessed i din had enuff sleep da nite before.. Slept less den 5 hours den had to drag myself out of bed juz for da sake for sun-tanning.. Worst still was i had on-and-off bad stomach cramps.. I even went to bed wif my cramps and headaches.. Ytd was a bad day for me..
My sweeties.. My msn nick is juz part of da lyrics of my bloggie's song.. Notink in particular.. I juz fall in love wif da song when i first heard it today on 933.. And its written by my fave JJ.. Tatz all.. Am not sad or watsoeva.. *winks*
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