Boring yet slacking job.

Hav been working for the traffic count for the past 3 days. Finally am done with it.

Thu 29th.Jun
Woke up by a sms at 10+. I tot it was smiley pig. Never expect the sender to be someone else. I tot I was dreaming. Couldn't quite believe it initially. Kept thinking tat the sms was a mistake. Haven't I been hoping for this? Shouldn't I be jumping for joy? Yet I felt more of uneasiness than happiness. I was so tired but still I couldn't get back to sleep. I was so disturbed by the sms. Only till late evening, my doubt was cleared. Am glad how things are now. And I jus felt as if I had let a big stone off my heart.

Left my house ard the same time as ytd so took the bus instead but I was 10 mins due to stupig jams. I tot am gonna be stationed at the carpark but am so darn lucky. When I reached there, Ying Wei told me noone is stationed at the bridge yet. When we finish work then I know Catsy reached 5 mins lata than me. He saved my day. LOL. Xiaotao called during work. Aww~ I missed his craps and the late nite chats.

Wed 28th.Jun
Reached CQ at 18:23. Tot am gonna be very late thus I took the train but din expect to reach within 30 mins. -_-" Oh well, at least am not stationed at the carpark.

Bad night. Moodswings. Emotions taking over me.

Guess its due to tiredness too. But I ended up tossing in my bed till 6+am.

Tue 27th.Jun
Lucky MOS is closed on tuesday. Because am stationed at the carpark.

And I wanna say...

Happy 1st Annivesary Flingy !!

iloveyou. my dearest Nana.

*rolls off to tattyland*

理由

逃避不一定躲的過，
面對不一定最難過，
孤單不一定不快樂，
得到不一定能長久，
失去不一定不再擁有。
你可能因為某個理由而傷心難過，
但你卻能找個理由讓自己快樂。

能讓自己快樂的理由是什麼﹖快樂又有是什麼﹖

我想會讓自己快樂的理由也是能夠讓自己難過的原因。

Traffic count-ed.

Helped Wanhua to stand in for the traffic count job. Initially din wanted to cos its darn boring. Din worked tat for a year plus alr. Catsy was working too. Great! The bus ride wudn't be so bored. I was late for 10mins so no choice and hence hav to be located at the carpark (only Mag likes it). There are 4 locations. And guess wad?! Its the carpark right infront of MOS. Yes. Ministry of Sound. And now u know why its Mag's fave spot cos can people-watch. Been to MOS few times but I never realise tat is the carpark where I used to sit there and people-count. Stupig. Luckily MOS is closed today else how to count?! So many people, somemore hav to count the people in the car not number of cars and always got big groups of tourists. Madness.

We even joked tat if MOS is opened, after work can straight away go club. The pay is for cover charge. And those people will think ur crazy for sitting outside MOS for 4hrs then go in. Catsy did tat ytd. But luckily everytime got a whole stretch of people sitting outside MOS, so he blended in well. Nobody wud realise he's actually pressing his ticker timer.

Will be working on wednesday. I hav to and will be early cos i don wanna be located at the carpark again. MOS does opens on wednesdays!!

*rolls off to tattyland*

The weekends.

Sun 18th.Jun
Attended my uncle's wedding dinner @ Laguna National Country Club. Kinda different from those dinners tat i attended. It was a buffet dinner.

My lil niece, Kira was awesome tat night. As there were 2 performers singing on stage, Kira was dancing below the stage till one of the performers asked her up to the stage and dance. She even sang along with the lady performer. And sang Memory - Avantasia (The Metal Opera) on her own.

My lovees. Mommy & Daddy
fifi.weiwei.eve.elna.dolph
the cousins
Us with the newly-wed

Sat 17th.Jun
BBQ at Debbie's house. Ate quite a whole lot of yummies. Am almost eating throughout the nite. *super sinful* The others were happily having their drinking and bitching session. Watched boring tv programmes. Pathetic saturday nite.

Someone drink drank drunk puked and knock-out. The basin was flooded. Omg.

Till the wee hours. The house finally had some peace. Some left and some were pigging. Left ard 6am wif Nana and Chimpy. Took 72 to tamp interchange.

Tat was not all. I casually mentioned Mac brekkie and Nana took it for real. Slept at 9+am. Madness. Wakie ard 4+pm and sudd rmb tat i gotta attend a wedding dinner.

Nana. Justina. Evie. Chimpy. Da tou. Simple Simon. Darren. Debbie

Guofeng the "Cook of the Nite". Simon. Justina. Selena. Us. "Thanks" to Idiotic Chimpy

the potential gay couple. Da tou busy with his prawnies. the mess

never knew my pet loves chocs so muchie. the guys fooling ard. the short mahjong session.

the crazy forfeits going on in the house while the bitching is going on outside.

Fri 16th.Jun
Attended a Commissioning Ball with Sampson @ Conrad. A 8-course dinner. Not too bad. The MCs were entertaining. Very coincidentally, the girl sat nex to me was my lesbie's fren, Angeline. Saw my ex-colleague, Heng Liang too. Almost cant recognise him. After the dinner, the guys suggested MOS but very weird right with our outfit. Den planned to go over to esplanade to chill but! we ended up inside DXO instead. Absolutely wrong decision. Never been to a club so quiet and ghostly. Not even one-quarter of it was filled up. The people inside there were simply glued to the big screen while the music was blasting can. The World Cup craze. Saw Kaili and Karen outside DXO. Very distinct when they are tgt. Hahas.

Evie. Summer. Sampson & fren. Heng Liang

-11.09pm-

Argh. My back aches.

*rolls off*

Holidays. Ending.

Random pictures snapped on Kim's birthday... Ok i know these pix were taken quite some time ago.

And... This is specially for Flingy, her K*****. LOL

Results were out on the 15th. Woots~ No Donkeys. Well, will work harder for the next coming sem...

Nothing much happened lately but simply rotting at home. And again... am not working this hols.. Omg. Less than 2 weeks and back to sch. The last semester...

Maybe its time to let go.

thou its been a year, am still missing you much.

可愛

Rainie :: 可愛

咖啡已經 溫熱不再 靜靜在一旁發呆
連風也停留窗外 等待
電話也已經 喧鬧不在 靜靜在一旁無奈
時鐘也不知怎麼停下來

期待 突然醒來 有你 溫暖依賴(有愛 可以依賴)
只是愛與不愛在徘徊 搖擺

我想你明白可能不是愛 我想你只想找個替代
你都說自己並沒有那麼可愛
我想你明白這並不是愛 我想你忘了什麼是愛
我不過是可愛 卻還不夠被愛

imissyou*

Miss You
I can't sleep
I just can't breathe
when your shadow is all over me baby
Don't wanna be
a fool in your eyes
Cause what we had was built on lies

And when our love seems to (always) fade away
Listen to me hear what I say

I don't wanna feel
the way that i do
I just wanna be
right here with you
I don't wanna see
see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you

What would it take
for you to see
To make you understand
that i'll always believe (always believe)
You and i
can make it through
And i still know
I can't get over you


*i jus wanna hold you close but so far all i have are dreams of you*

Weekly updates. Finally.

Wed 7th.Jun
Sweetie called to meet up at TM. A small meet-up (Rinz. Dada. Nana. Xiaotao. Dickson. Zanyan) before Xiaotao gg into army. Met up wif Sweetie. Dada. Xiaotao. Dickson and had our dinner at Yoshinoya. Xiaotao's treat. Flingy came over to meet us after her work and had a pathetic dinner. Yoshi not enuff bowl and used a smaller bowl instead = smaller portion. How cud they?! My flingy sure not enuff to eat!! Always complaining she's hungry. (yes. she jus sms'ed saying she's hungry.) Wanted to watch "The Omen" but tickets selling fast, only left with 2 front rows but the seats are separated. No choice but to drop the idea. Went to Starbucks to chill till 11plus. Reached home did my stuffs and chatted with Mag on the phone.

4th-6th.Jun
Stayed home. Long hours phone chat with Mag and Xiaotao.

Sat 3rd.Jun
Flingy's big day. Celebrated her last teen year @ Hello! Partyworld with our SIM clique (Nana. Marilyn. Mabel. Anne. Da Sean. Mcroy. Da Tou. Darren. Chap. Andy) Met Mabel first to get Nana's pressie. The unexpected thing is Birthday girl was the first to reach. All of us were late. *Sorry* On bringing the cake to the room, we were so scared tat Nana wud fa xian our plan. Well, we still managed to surprise her with a birthday cake. Hope she did enjoy our lil birthday celebration for her.

After ktv, Nana. Da S. Darren. Andy wanted to have supper so we went over to Cuppage. The food there is expensive and not nice. Luckily i was ceng-ed by her birthday cake.

Went to Dal's chalet @ SAF yatch club with Flingy. Xiaotao and Nana.
Tat 2 geminiS - Zui Jia Pai Dang for lame jokes. Left ard 3plus. *yawns*

Fri 2nd.Jun
Finally the day has come. Our last paper. Quite worried for BIS. OTQM and BF are manageable thou. Hopefully no supp for BIS. Results will be out on the 15th.Jun.

After our paper, went to town with Flingy. Planned to go partyworld to book the room for her birthday but we forgot all bout it. And happily happily went to chill.

:: Pix snapped on 3rd Jun ::


When peanut face snap with round face and big bead...

Flingy !!
Da Tou !!
Maris.Nana.Evie

*rolls off*

Too late.

如果那時候沒放開手 現在的思念 還會那裡痛苦嗎?

Lately I've been struggling within.
To put my pride aside and gather my courage.
I almost and could have done it.
But... It's meaningless to you already.
Some things are better left unsaid.

I did say harsh things to you but I never meant it.
I've been trying to be happier all this while
but without you nothing seems right.
I jus don wanna be seen so weak in your eyes.

All the best to you and take real good care of yourself. Jia you~