everything.is.over ??

Day 4 = Breakup

Barely slept for 5ive hours n im awake.. tired but cudnt sleep at all..

Finally.. i've got da answer to my doubts.. But da outcome isnt wad i wanted nor hoped for.. we r over.. everything is over.. juz bcos u said ya tired of everything and u juz wanna b alone all by yaself.. i dun expect u to change for me.. i juz only wan to stay by ya side.. but.. u said u wont b happy.. wont b satisfied.. so im da one so stupig.. so irritating.. clinging onto u and wudnt let go.. but i juz cudnt let go.. i dun bear to let go.. i dun wanna let go.. but.. now u left me wif no choice.. i juz gotta do it ya way.. u juz dun wanna kip me waiting rite.. i tot wad i said to u last nite cud change ya mind.. but ya juz so so so stubborn.. wad a stubborn piG.. i meant every word i said.. but everything is useless.. for now only?

Wadz most hurting was u said u dun love me anymore.. ren bian le.. xin ye bian le.. n dere's a third party.. i wan my life to b filled wif memories of u and me.. ya da one i wanna spend da rest of my life wif.. mayb.. tell me dey r all lies.. tell me everything has not cum to d end.. tell me itz juz oni temporary.. tell me u dun mean wad u said.. tell me i still haf a place in ya heart.. i dream for tat day when u cud tell me all dis.. we had a past.. no present.. wad bout our future? It was juz my wishful thinking rite from da start.. mayb u haf never tot da same way like i do at all.. mayb u juz take me as another item adding on to ya ex-gf list.. ya heart juz cudnt settled down.. mayb im not da rite one for u.. mayb..

If only wad u said wasnt wad u meant.. hope everything tat u said was juz bcos ya so stressed up.. tatz y u cudnt tink properly now.. i dun wanna end everything.. Never..

Wad can i do to change ya mind? wad can i do to make u cum back to me? im so lost without u wif me.. my life is so incomplete wif u missing from it.. do u noe all dis? u dun.. and u'll never noe.. im feeling darn miserable.. u turned my world upside down.. Tatty Land is so lifeless without u.. i dun enjoy goin dere without u..

imu imu imu.. remember? u said tatz our language.. imu..

Feeling so xin ku now.. but i gotta b strong n stand up again.. else how to win ya heart back.. (^@^)