New hair color..

Yippie!!

Finally got a new hair color n highlite.. Went to kimage wif naimei dis afternoon.. lolx.. Loves givin her sudden notices.. Called her at 10am dis morning n asked her to go kimage wif me to get our hair color done.. It was her n my lucky day.. cos i got her to go down wif me when i wasnt aware tat she din go work today.. juz try my luck.. haha..

I got a dark brown base to cover up da lite brown of my hair roots.. Darn.. dun ever use bigen black dye.. cos its highly intensive.. Unless u wanna cover up white or grey hair.. Chose red for da highlite.. but bcos of da black dye thus cant get da red i wanted.. instead it turned out abit orangy.. da outcome wasnt tat bad afterall.. da color quite similar to wad i did at jean yip da last time.. naimei got ash for highlite n a dark brown for base too.. looks quite different le.. hehe.. not tat innocent-looking le.. wh0ops..


Narcissistic-ing wif my newly colored hair



My dabian & miee.. Miss her so much

Wednesday = Ladies' Nite.. Gers' nite out wif vivi, winnie and rachel..

I mit winnie at monster cue first to play pool.. Den i realized kailing is workin at dere.. hee.. so qiao.. so longg din play pool liao.. forgot everytink.. But.. i got myself a shi fu.. Winnie san.. she imparted her pool knowledge to me.. I muz comment tat she has very good patience manz.. i took quite a longg time to grasp tat lil bit of a whole lot of wad she taught.. Wo hui ji xu jia you de.. Nex time shall go play again.. Muz train till i haf half of her skills..

Black seems so dead tat nite but Zouk darn crowded.. mambo nite.. We went to black first den go over to zouk.. At zouk.. terrible.. pple kept walkin past in between me n winnie.. squeezin their way thru past us.. gRrr.. den winnie, rachel n i decided to go over to Phuture.. vivi enjoyin her mambo dance.. wrong choice to go over dere oso.. darn packed.. da crowd is like overflowing.. Squeezed our way in and my feet kena stepped so many times.. pain.. and gotta squeezed our way out again.. arghz..

Ard 1plus received a call from jackson.. so he's still happily jumpin somewhere on earth.. tot he disappeared to another planet liao.. din hear from him for ages.. but whenever he calls sure got motive one.. Last nite was bcos he's studyin for his term tests den he scare he'll fall asleep while studyin so called to chat n study at da same time.. chatted for awhile.. His pattern forever da same.. Suan-ing power oso improved.. -.-

After da call, winnie, rae n me wanted to get a drink from da petrol kiosk but went to haf bak kut teh for supper instead.. And i realized its da stall which i haf been buggin my parents to bring me dere again cos i dunno how to get dere.. lolx.. Coincidently.. rae brought us dere.. wo0~ da soup was yummielicious.. Went back to wait for vivi den share cab home.. hmmm.. on mentioning vivi.. dis ger ar.. alwaz show me stunts whenever i go out wif her.. muahahaha.. she din failed to show me stunt tat nite too.. careless vivi had a small cut on her knee.. blood.. Lolx..

Reached home ard 4am.. msn-ed wif winnie n tat kuku long until 6am den go tattyland.. Surprisingly, thou oni noe winnie for few days.. we hit off very well.. i love chattin wif her.. She shares da feelin of how i exactly felt and vice versa.. both of us r facing Contradiction but we came up wif a new philosophy - Happy happy - to live happier den before.. hee..

Slept for tat pathetic 2hrs plus oni.. lucky i've got ian to gimme mornin call else i tink i gonna skip sch again.. he called again to double check.. but i still went back to sleep for awhile after i hung up my hp.. no worries.. i wasnt late.. hee..

So wadz on for tmr?? Recharge my energy first.. Im goin for my BFA lec tmr mornin.. cos Jeselle is complaining tat im leaving her alone.. wh0ops..

Party all nite..

YEAH!! All gers' nite out tonite.. Vivi, Rachel,Winnie n miee.. Gonna craze for da whole nite.. Black den zouk.. im so in da mood to play play play.. till i skipped lessons almost everyday.. Today im on mc again.. Cos i overslept.. Lessons at 8am but i woke up at 8:25am.. By da time i get prepared already 10am so mite as well.. hiak hiak.. Went back to tattyland.. Slept till 11plus.. Woke up and called Steph.. Found out she din go sch AGAIN.. 3 days in a row.. 0mg~ Sista.. U beta dun so slack liao.. Went to polyclinic to get a mc den go home slack n slack.. And im still here rotting n msn-ing..

3:36pm - Hmm.. Beta go get prepare now.. And all da fun is awaiting.. yo0hoO~

5:25pm - Finally im done.. Goin to mit winnie first for pool den dinner.. Yummielicious.. Else gotta smuggle burger again.. wh0ops.. lolx..

Ciaoz..

My Sign of Affection...

Cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed.

What Sign of Affection Are You?

Sleepy Spell..

*yawnz*

Guess i haf been casted a sleepy spell.. alwaz feelin so sleepy dis few days..

Ytd planned to mit yan, jinghui n kok yeow at 2pm but i oni reached at 5plus.. too tired le.. went to KBox da nite before wif my family n relatives till 3am.. it was fun.. sang for hours.. but.. still not enuff.. I wanna go k songs again.. drank a lil too much of red wine.. got da kick when i reached home.. darn terrible feelin.. terrible headache..

Mit yan & co. at suntec den went for my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-dinner 3-in1 meal.. Pizza Hut.. Yummie.. but ordered too much le.. shud haf ordered da meal for 2-3 pax instead of 4-5 pax.. Stupig ah kok initially still say no prob cos got him.. he kio sai one.. in d end he surrender.. cannot take in anymore liao.. For a moment i disliked my fave cheese cos kuku huihui poured too much cheese onto my pizza.. yikes.. so salty.. haha.. but i did poured a whole lot of chilli powder onto his pizza.. spicy enuff ba.. LOL..

Wad happens when 2 narcissists r together??





Ard 8plus went to look for vivi.. den saw rachel.. wo0~ so she's done wif her sleeping craze.. finally out wif her again.. wahahaha.. den vivi's fren - winnie came to look for us.. vivi intro us in da ladies.. of all places.. -.-" den we proceeded to black.. mit beng n andy dere..

We played da five-ten game.. madness.. stupig me kip repeatin stupig mistakes.. gRrr.. had fun overall.. hee..

We left ard 2plus for supper.. silly vivi drank too much.. haiyo.. nex time beta stop when u reached ya limit.. last nite muz be feelin darn terrible.. We oni had our supper at ard 5am? bcos we dilly-dally too much le.. Initially wanted to go kopitiam for supper but den tot it was too far so deciding if we shall catch a movie n haf junk food or juz supper.. or movie den breakfast.. LOL.. dun tink can make it after movie le.. so went for supper oni.. it was a no-image-nite.. Swensens and da cab.. LOL.. Finally had our supper at kopitiam.. had ban mian.. wEe~ chi bao bao hou can sui tian tian.. thanx beng.. he's da most tired one but still gotta send everyone home first..

Am glad tat i clarified tinks wif someone.. felt so much relieved.. dun wanna waste anybody's time.. i noe itz impossible after clearin my tots at ecp tat nite.. it will be very unfair for him.. i noe am in a weak emotional state rite now.. wont be able to recover so soon..

Lucky winnie was wif me.. Else i wud haf made a great mistake.. all thanx to alcohol.. Nearly sms-ed him.. phew~ i din!!

I missed my-once-used-to-be bendan..
I missed his hugs especially when da nite felt so cold n lonely..
I missed hugging him tightly whenever he sees me home to my doorstep..
I missed his never-fail-to-irritate-me conversations..
I missed his kisses..
I missed his voice..
I missed his sms-es..
I missed those days wif him..
I missed him so muchhhie..
Memories of him n me together are still so sweet but y do i haf dis feelin of da bendan in my heart seems so distant from me.. Im afraid memories of him will start to fade cos sometimes some memories seems abit blur and it felt as if everytink is oni a dream.. Sometimes i felt as if i dunno dis person at all.. As if everytink took place at tattyland n itz oni my hallucinations..

I wait for you,
anxious to see your face.
I stand and watch,
looking for the first sign of your arrival.
I finally see you,
I take a second look to make sure you're really there.
My pulse races and I crack a smile,
this is what I've been waiting for.
You begin to approach,
you say, "Sorry, I'm late."
I say, "No problem."
But I think to myself, 'I'd have waited forever.'

Maybe itz pointless waiting for u..

"Love is alwaz worth da wait" ya waiting for ya new-founded happiness.. Wadz da point for me waiting for smt tat will never be mine again.. Stupig me.. Someone slap me awake can??

Crazy long day..

sooo sleepy...

in da lab waiting for yan n froggy finish lessons..

darn sch.. will be havin lessons from 8am to 8pm.. craze.. but i missed da 8-10 lesson bcos miss evElyN overslept.. LOL..

14th Feb Monday = Valentine's Day

Spent dis romantic nite wif Vivian n 2 frens of hers.. Andy n Beng.. Rachel joined us lata.. has been a longg time since i last saw her.. as crazy as before.. lol.. vivian is oso another crazy ger.. go out wif her is reali madness cos she can laff non-stop.. faints.. Went to nydc for dinner.. da food is not tat yummie.. den went to catch a movie 'The Machinist'.. lame show.. duh..

Yea.. dey finish lessons le.. Its time for breakfast.. Update lata..

Ciaoz..

2:20am - i noe wad i wan.. i realised i haf been pretending all along.. lying to myself.. but i juz cant deny tat i miss him sooo much.. so much sweet memories.. memories which can never be replaced.. knew some tinks recently and realized tat i had been worrying so darn much for notink in da past.. shud haf da 101% faith in u and i wudnt needa suffer mentally oso.. haiz.. tink i mood swinging again.. y am i tinkin so much.. madness..

go tattyland now.. tmr will be a brand new day..

nites..

Last day of cNy hols..

Last nite had great fun.. Had family gathering at a restaurant for dinner cum karaoke.. My uncle booked 2 rooms.. both connected de.. It was a 8-course dinner.. yummie~ but i tink i stopped at da fifth dish liao.. Ceng~ den i joined in da k session.. had duets wif my sista.. haha.. Initially quite uneasy cos first time sing infront of my family.. but lata was ok le.. My sista is machiam addicted to singing.. Can sing non-stop.. powerful.. lol.. My dad n uncles reali had so much fun.. Sing n sing.. gek those funny voice n purposely sing till offkey.. tink dey drank too much le.. all so high liddat.. made my mom n aunties laff till cramp.. bth~

While waiting for da dishes to cum.. haha.. Pix taking session again.. even fion oso bth me.. i pulled whoeva nex to me n snap wif me.. *sounds violent.. but im not.. LOL..

Some of da pix tat i took...





My grandaunt and me.. She say wanna take pix de.. Sporting rite..


Fiona and Me.. She's infected by my virus..


Sistaz.. Another narcissist..

After da dinner, my sis and me went down to fisherman village to mit Zan n Roland dey all.. It was Grace's birthday so dey went dere to celebrate.. Jovina, Ian, Weekiat, Seng n some of their frens were dere too.. very friendly.. dere's dis crappy guy.. Weijie.. another lamer.. kip saying his 'famous' quote.. LOL.. Sebas is workin at fv oso.. nearly cant recognise him.. Lorraine was darn drunk.. poor ger.. Hope she din get a serious hangover.. last nite my head darn giddy le.. drank few glasses of red wine wif my family den at fv drank again.. tat stupig ian dunno never see him for how many donkey years.. last nite saw him.. den he stunned me wif shocking news.. g0sh.. boy.. hopefully its oni a new year joke hor.. not funny but stunning..

I knew he wud be dere.. i tot i can act as if notink had happened.. but i was darn wrong.. When i saw him i juz felt so wierd n distant.. but at least i noe my heart no longer feelin any pain already or mayb my feelings for him started to fade.. Isnt it a good sign? haha.. Im not angry wif him neither do i haf any hatred for him.. Juz simply dunno how to face him.. It takes time.. Noe smt from roland too.. hee.. Its juz tat guys cudnt resist temptations.. Not tat gers dun haf temptations.. but at least gers probably noe how to restrain..

Den their fren, Jason came.. slack awhile den send us home.. wif his lorry.. hee.. first time sit lorry.. quite fun.. haha.. it was a enjoyable n crazy day overall..

Looking forward to my nex k session.. and my sakae sushi.. haha.. someone promised me liao.. dun sua lai ar..

*Sianzation* lata gotta do my 7-page report liao.. tmr gotta hand in.. and.. i haf not started on it yet.. Dere wun be ani short break or hols till my exams r over.. sobs.. nevermind.. tmr still can enjoy cos tmr is v day.. Gers' nite out.. Muahahaha..

Saw smt juz now.. i juz dunno y feel some sort of 'happy' when it doesnt n shudnt mean anitink.. but it did mean smt to me.. at least.. *smiles* Went to tM to get my flats changed.. Unknowingly i walked all da way home from tamp interchange.. da walk took me about forty-five minutes.. dunno wad has got into me to be so 'hardworking'.. Juz nidda calm myself down.. My heart nids some peace.. Im not prepared to challenge da on-goings in my life now.. Everytink seems to cum at once n unexpectedly.. Changes again.. i nidda adapt to da new changes in my life..

Holidays mood...

After a long breaak.. totally no mood for sch.. can say ever since we handed in our wbat assignment, we started to slack.. self proclaimed hols.. from mon till now.. i oni attended wbat tut for dis whole week and skipped da rest.. dis sem supposedly shud be beta but i tink i cleared all da leave except for swen lab nia.. tmr enjoy again.. but sunday muz force myself to start on my 7-pages report.. else...... still gotta study for bbFin quiz.. tatz crazy.. Sianzation~ gRrrr...

9th Feb Wednesday
First day of cNy.. as usual.. woke up by my mommy.. but dis time she prepared breakfast.. fried bee hoon.. but.. juz woke up where got appetite to eat.. -.- ate abit bit else she gonna start nagging again.. Den painted my nails metallic red.. nicE~ bought quite a number of tops but din planned wad to wear for cny.. onli decided it last minute.. wore a black tube top wif flower-leaf designs and black pants wif my red gothic heels.. so it din look so blackish on da whole.. My daddy was so impatient.. i saw him standing at da doorstep when i went to da living room.. den he say, "eh.. y u copycat? wear all black like me.." -.- Initially was quite pissed off cos he's like rushing da whole family den can still like 'debating' wif me wif all dis rubbishh when im not done yet.. den i say, "eh.. y u so fast wait outside? i haven even put on my makeup leh.." Guess my daddy was quite irritated waiting for us (mommy n my 2 sistaz) gals mah.. so will take longer time.. cant blame.. den he went downstairs to wait for us instead..

We went to da temple in tampines before visiting.. Dis year different.. last time is go to da temple at thiong bahru..

First visiting stop: my paternal grandparents' house.. Sat dere for an hour or so den went home to put down da tinks my grandparents gave.. i slept throughout da journey till i reached my maternal grandparents.. oso da last stop.. cos all my relatives will go dere for dinner.. can collect all my ang paos at one place.. convenient.. haha..

Da first day of lunar new year is oso da day im alwaz looking forward to every year.. cos tatz when i get to eat my greataunt's homemade tang yuan and vegetarian yummies.. den i had some lil chat wif my cousins..
Suddenly.. i felt tat we r no longer da lil girls whom we used to be.. not tat we r old now.. Juz felt tat everyone of us matured alot compared to last time.. We hardly mit up.. If lucky perhaps at least thrice a year.. Else i tink it's only twice a year.. cNy n my materal grandparents' birthday.. Now, each and everyone of us had different experiences n problems.. Unlike in da past.. so carefree n problemless.. arghz.. dun wanna dig up da unhappiness.. It supposed to be a joyous occasion.. *smiles* Tess oso not bad ar.. another narcissistist.. *snap snap


Sistaz~ In da cab..


So xing fu neh.. Baby..


Im simply narcissistic.. LOL


Tess and meee..


:: Cousins :: Ada . Meee . Nana

In da evening.. while takin pix wif my lil lovely niece (yup! narcissistic again) i received an unexpected call.. cNy surprise ar.. a call from my 'ah-g0ng'.. crapped n lamed ard.. not bad ar.. he's speakin up more le.. Crapping skills improved alot le.. heh heh..

Later at nite.. Worm suggested to go Black.. coincidently ah gong & co. oso planned to go.. wo0~ den i called Steph to join us too.. haha.. guess wad?! she oso intended to jio me go black.. but i called first.. lolx..

Reached black at 10plus.. slack ard at upstairs wif worm & co. while waiting for steph n cheryl to come we were entertaining ourselves sia.. Nearly cant recognised ah gong when he walk past me.. haf not seen each other for two years plus le.. haha.. He alwaz says when he mentions he very long never see his frens is count in months but we count as in years de.. haha.. jokes~

Its Lunar New Year!!

Happy Lunar New Year~

Today supposed to go for one hour tut but we skipped again.. thanx to my dear yan.. hee.. Anyway i'll be darn late even if i were to attend da tut cos miss eve here is so forgetful n blur.. I happily happily put my digi cam into my bag n recharged da batt last nite.. But.. I realised tat i did not bring da memory card out when im in da bus.. 0mg~ chop chop get off da bus n went opposite to take bus home.. Luckily oni two bus stops away.. But i oni took one bus stop cos i too gan chiong when i got off da bus and froggy called so juz walked straight while tokin on da fone.. I was supposed to mit him at 1045 but its nearly 1050 already.. i oni reached interchange at.. hmm.. 1120 ?? Den we went to find yan at timezone.. g0sh.. guess she's addicted to it liao after da crazy day at parklane ytd.. Waited for huihui to join us den we went for lunch at Ajisen.. ajisen~ da last time i stepped into it was like few months ago.. with him.. *smiles* After our lunch, yan n i played a few rounds of foto hunt.. played till our eyes soo0o blur n tired.. den we played Hockey stadium wif huihui n froggy.. haha.. exciting.. ok!! i noe my image all gone while playing.. nevermind.. i enjoyed.. lol..

Finally.. its zi lian-ing session.. tatz da purpose for bringing my digi cam.. took many many crazy n fun pix.. my zi lian kakis of da day, yAn, liSa, jEsElle aka kAh eN.. froggy, ah kok, huihui n jason r 'forced' to pei he.. but it was very fun rite.. hehe..


Arent we cute? LOL.. Lisa suggested dis pose..


Smiling sweetly.. Froggy!! wru lookin at?!


da Narcissistic 4!!


Opps.. caught in action while tian mi mi-ing.. LOL

As usual had reunion dinner at my grandma's house.. dis time had more chance to chat wif fiona le.. last time we seems to only chat a few sentences.. mayb bcos dis time i din wanted to join my younger cousins.. cos feelin quite sian n tired.. so juz stayed at da back door wif my mommy dey all.. my niece oso entertained us wif her incredible voice.. she sang quite a number of songs.. phantom of da opera, barbie ger, disney's hits.. she danced along too.. soo cute.. she's oni 5 year- old.. impressive.. i saw fiona's tattoo - carpe momentum.. whoa~ few months ago i wanted to get one but scare of da pain but fion told me its bearable.. hee.. so.. i reali gotta make up my mind on which design i wan n get one too.. since mommy oso gif her consent le.. aNd.. She gave da green lite for highlighting my hair.. goody goody.. so.. ash or purple?? *tink tink tink


My darling niece~ She purposely posed for us..


Dere's smt different dis year.. Usually i will haf reunion dinner wif my family n relatives den go home but dis time my sis n i went to mit our frens - (liling, wentao, zan, gabriel) at hougang plaza for k session.. wo0~ my fave~ actually very sleepy liao but reali very itchy for k session.. Dis sat gonna haf another k session wif my family.. gonna sing till glass break.. muahahaha.. haiyo.. before my sis n i went to hougang plaza smt fed-up n funni happened.. We took a cab from hougang mrt station n ask da cabby to go to hougang plaza.. but tat stupig uncle brought us to hougang point instead.. We din noe initially cos we never go before.. find n find for da entrance.. but no avail so asked wentao down to bring us in.. We were waiting for him somewhere near da kopitiam.. waited n waited.. call to check out where's he.. We tot we were at da same kopitiam.. my sis n i panicked when he say he's already dere.. but cant see him at all.. faint.. i still tot.. another dimension? den asked someone where's our location.. and.. its Hougang Point!! ahHh.. stupig uncle dunno his directions.. chop chop take another cab down to mit dem.. damn cabby..

serious headache now due to da drinks.. beta go tattyland liao.. tmr gonna b another long day again.. muz wake up early to doll up.. hehe..

Nitey nites..

cNy mood..

todayy din attend ANY lesson da whole thou i haf 3 lectures n CMSK3 draft consultation @ 430.. reached sch at 9 when im supposed to reach at 8 to wrap up WBAT assignment.. cos i woke up late n had to rush my interface in da morning.. Last nite was reali veryy sleepy.. Went to work at clarke quay but is eat snake all da way.. muz be bcos i din see mag mag so longg liao.. suddenly got so much to chat.. chatted for 4 whole hours.. Den met worm for my late dinner.. craps againn.. one moment my face nearly suffered from cramps by his rubbishh.. another moment he disgusted me wif his gruesome conversations.. omg~ ard 2plus yan was telling me wad to do for da wbat assignment.. interface n dialogue box.. trying to crack my brains wif tat few lil awake cells to do my interface but my brain already cant function well.. my mind was happily happily floating away to tattyland already.. hee.. so i gave in n tucked myself comfortably into my bed..

Everyone was busy printing n wrapping up da assignments.. till 10am.. finally~ Everytink has completed n chop chop go hand in.. We were deciding shud we go for cmsk cos gotta draft out a 7-page report.. -.-zZz Conclusion: all (me, yan, lisa, froggy, huihui, ah kok) go bugis.. cos froggy haven buy his cny clothes.. kY n lisa joined us lata after their wbat tut.. shopped for about 2 hours.. froggy bought his tinks at Domanchi.. da clothes look nice n smart.. all shirts n pants de.. got da fomal n informal image.. Den we wanted to haf soya bean so walked all da way to somewhere near peace centre.. only to find out tat da shop is CLOSED! gRrr.. tot of goin to lavender to play bowling but we dunno how to go.. h0w? settled ourselves at da arcade in parklane.. so longg din play arcade games le.. haha.. and i reali sux at those games.. used to play quite well for bomberman but now.. Only one word can describe.. Terrible.. yan n i challenged another version of tat bishi bashi.. reali nid speed.. haiyo.. i got too high easily le.. practically screamin n jumpin when i missed it.. Crazy eve.. muahaha.. Everyone had a greaattt time today..

YEAH! tmr is da eve of cny liao.. and da six of us planned to wear RED! lol.. tmr gonna bring digi cam to snap snap.. snap down all our wonderful memories.. i got da cny mood leh.. cos im gonna had fun dis whole cny week.. haf alot of yummielicious, got ang paos, can catch up wif my cousins esp. Fiona (i miss her so much), k session on sat, blah blah blah.. wahahaha..

Muz recharge my energy power liao.. dis few nites slept veryy lil.. Everyday feel so sleepy.. -.-zZz

last minute shopping~

Finished pom pom lo.. juz came back not long from bedok 85 wif Eric & co... had my dinner-cum-supper.. had ba chor mee n dian xin.. woO~ Fats gonna develop..

Din had my dinner cos i was busy doin last minute shopping for cny.. Met beary onli at 6plus.. As usual.. she waited for me again.. =P We spent da whole evening at Far East shopping.. Both of us bought almost everything we wanted to.. from top to bottom n accessories.. Recently, i seems to haf a fetish for tube tops.. hee.. I bought two tops from PetalBox and beary got a red tube wif sequins.. tat was nice but size s out of stock.. so i got another one instead.. da clothes dere quite nice wif resonable price.. bought myself a pair of jeans too.. it has been a long longg time since i last bought a pair of jeans.. i went back to da same store.. cos dere cheap, nice n comfy.. lol..

When we were about to leave, beary was attracted to da colorful Gothic heels.. she tried on a few n decided to get one.. den she was askin for my opinion on which color to buy.. needless to say.. i chose my fave color red! haha.. den i itchy itchy tried on it.. it was comfy n looks nice.. heh heh.. i bought a pair too~ Red.. she bought da Beige one.. i bought da lower heels which is abit dull compared to da pair wif higher heels.. i also tried da higher heels but da bian.. reali very high.. tink i walk few steps le can trip fall n roll.. so beta not take da risk.. tsk tsk..

Supposed to go for dinner after shopping but guess xiaogUiguIi very tired ba.. She mood swing again so din go for makan le.. haiyo~ wo qing ai de xiAoguIgUi ar.. got tinks muz say out k.. dun alwaz kip to yaself.. We wont noe wad ya tinkin.. dun b selfish.. got probz muz share wif us.. *winks

Saw Worm at 85 too.. Uncle-ing again?! haha.. beta not make yaself drunk again.. guess u dun even remember calling me last nite.. Drunk~ Lol..

Its sleeping time~ nitey nites..

-=Lights out=-

i.miss.her

*yAwns* Din attend my BFA lec dis morning.. woke up at 8 but i juz cant drag my lazy bones down da bed.. called Jeselle to tell her i'll gib da lec a miss but guessed she was bathing cos she din ans my call.. wanted to call back again lata.. before i knew it.. i fell asleep n it was already 9:50am.. aHhh.. chop chop wash up n prepare to go sch..

Hanging around at da concourse wif yAn & co. before goin for lessons.. Suddenly.. i saw HER.. We had eye contact.. Deep in my heart, i was wondering if she will smile at me or juz walk past me pretending tat she din c me at all.. *sUrpriSe suRprisE* dis gal reali stunned me.. hehe.. tat is none other den QueeNie lYnie.. She approached me n chatted abit bit.. thou our conversation lasted not more den 5ive mins but i was very happy tat she talked to me.. da last few times when i saw her in sch she din even bother.. I tot dere will never be another chance to tok to her again.. Last nite whilst reading some online articles she came into my tots.. and.. i saw her dis morning.. *smiles* I used to call her huai nuu ren.. not bcos she's bad or notti.. cos she nick-named me ben nuu ren.. omg~ bu ben dou gei ta jiang ta ben.. haha.. but i juz loved da way she call me.. Initially we weren't tat close until once only da both of us went out.. We went to suntec n had delifrance.. tat day she was crazy playing wif her 6610 n camera.. She even took a pix of the potato which we were eating.. cos she said da potato looks retarded so she wans to snap it.. lol.. Ever since tat day she has been telling pple tat suntec delifrance's potatoes are retarded.. -.- Whenever i see da poster of milk, it reminds me of her.. she was da one who had a hard time carrying da big big framed poster to my house.. when she reached she was nagging on how stupig she look carrying da frame to n fro.. hee.. tat was oso da day we had greattt fun.. Energy Power concert.. and.. instead of paying FULL attention to da 4 cuties, we were bz wif our balloon thingy.. stupig~ till now.. i still dun understand how did we end up dis way.. im sorry if i had hurt u in any ways.. Perhaps i made da same mistake again.. not voicing out my inner tots when tinks go wrong n i wud juz bottled up inside me..

Dere's smt u shud noe.. ya certainly a fren whom i cherish n cherished.. our frenship was more than words.. i remember how u picked me up when i was down n showed me da door of happiness.. ya alwaz so understanding n tolerating my nonsense.. Perhaps dere might be a day when u cud forget all da unhappiness n return to 2475.. dearest lYn.. 2475 miss u badly.. dun u?


I miss the way things were
I miss the happy times
I miss the social life
I miss the peace of mind

I miss when things made sense
I miss the long talks
I miss the joyous hours
I miss my confidant

I miss giving surprise visits
I miss sleeping on her comfy sofa
I miss hearing her call me ben nuu ren
I miss her naggings n nagging at her

I miss the sarcastic remarks
I miss the midnite talks
I miss the childish giggles
I miss sharing wadz on my mind

I miss feeling like I matter
I miss not having to pretend
I miss alot of things
But most, I miss my friend.


2:40am - juz hanged up da phone wif Eric.. We haf not been in contact since he graduated.. woO~ He reali changed alot sia.. Mayb guys reali noe how to tink after their NS.. He's soo0 much different from da Eric whom i noe few years back.. More matured le.. noe how to plan for his future liao.. ta kai qiao le.. haha.. he was like preaching throughtout da conversations.. telling me ren sheng da dao li.. it made sense actually.. such tinks will never come out from his mouth in da past.. and now he's da one giving me advices.. cant believe it~ Sakae sushi on Monday?? wahahaha.. gReatt.. n i can get to mit up wif my dearest Sharon too.. *gRins

Tiring day...

Had so lil sleep but long day in sch.. Rushing my assignments.. Stayed till 9pm doin SWEN.. den went for dinner wif Froggy & co... shud reali count myself lucky to haf jH.. helpin me wif all da assignments.. phEw~ Else im gonna faint dere le.. So lost wif all da stupig classes, sequence n vopc diagrams.. *my mind is completely blank n clueless on wad to do* da bian~

Found out something which i wished i'd never noe but i noe i wud wan to noe.. was on da verge of crying.. controlled myself.. my mind was in a whirl.. i felt so tired.. felt as if im torn into pieces.. but im juz too tired to tink bout anything.. too tired to pretend tat im moving on.. too tired to lie to myself tat im letting go.. too tired to find reasons for myself to be happy.. too tired to purposely kip myself busy so tat he will not be on my mind.. im juz simply emotionally worn-out..
Something which i haf been worried n afraid of since da day im wif him..
Something which made me gib him attitude out of da blue..
Something which i hoped it will end my doubts n agony n shorten my pain but i prayed hard tat it will never affect our relationship..
Something which made me feel so insecure n he tinks tat i dun trust him at all.. its not tat i dun trust him.. I wan to gib him my 101% trust.. but.. dere's alwaz a thing or two which happened made me in doubt.. After pondering for quite some time, i guessed i knew wadz da prob wif me.. somehow or rather.. I juz lacked of self confidence when im wif him.. Gave myself too much restraints.. Gave myself unnecessary pressure.. Afraid of losing him any moment.. Afraid tat he'll change any moment..
And now i nid not tink of these anymore.. da thing tat im afraid will happen has happened but i wished tat it had never ever happened.. I haf lose him for good.. For everything tat had happened which led to dis breakup were da consequences of my own doings..?

因為太愛你 所以那麼在意 常常­胡思亂想 漸漸的 我在你的­面前 也不禁失去­ 原來的自己
在我眼裡 我卻只能看到你 在這宇宙裡 沒有任何東西 可以取代 或比你­重要
如果和你在一起有一個期限­ 那一定是比永遠多一天。。。
現在的我 只感受到痛 就只有活在回憶裡 才會感受愛 感受快樂 感受幸福
現在的你 變得很­陌生 很冷淡 已不是我曾經 深愛著的那小笨蛋 而是世上最熟悉的­陌生人。。。

Juz when i wanted to tell him so much.. i was too late.. too slow to noticed da change in him..
Somethings are beta left unsaid afterall..
Seeing da situation now, it wont make any difference anyway..
Half of me wans to let go.. Another half me is hoping for a miracle to happen..
Contradicting.. ya.. i dunno wad i wan exactly..
im searching for an answer n exploring my inner self..
Well, if dis is da happiness he's lookin for... *smiles*

2nd Feb Wednesday
I skipped WBAT lab n SWEN tut.. but i only intended to skip da lab cos its sooo early.. 8AM and i've not been sleeping well da past week.. well~ finally i did.. i slept for 10 longg hours.. but i missed my SWEN tut.. i only knew tat when i woke up n replied froggy's msg n he said im late.. very late.. checked my timetable.. uh-oh.. 11am got tut.. haha.. but nvm.. cos first time skip.. so i took my time preparing den off to sch.. hee.. BBFin lessons is so exciting.. -.- da relief tutor kip shooting me lo.. called me more den 3 times to answer qns.. cos i was sitting in a corner trying to catch some sleep.. haha.. bei fa xian sia..

1st Feb Tuesday
Went early to sch to wrap off my CSAD phase 1.. was rushing like mad.. STRESSED for tat moment.. luckily its only for tat particular moment else im reali goin bonkers.. feeling very very sleepy.. i dozed off a few times during intrEcons.. my dearie Mag oso lo.. We were like taking turns dozing off in class.. jokes~ tink da teacher witnessed tat too but lucky she din embarrassed us..
After sch went to mit lw to get da VCDs from him.. finally can continue watching Ah Nan De Xiao Qing Ren.. sure think of him again de.. da first 4 discs i watched it wif him.. He din finish da show afterall..
We had dinner at KFC.. very ceng.. Actually intended to haf waffle ice-cream at Gelare cos Tuesday is Waffle Day.. but too bad.. i dun wanna make my stomach explode.. Jeselle good lo.. Ever since tat day she haf been having it every week WITHOUT fail.. g0sh.. she's more hard core den me.. haha.. beta still.. another waffle kaki.. *gRins*
lw: paiseh leh.. Energy level is low tatz y quieter n less hyper den usual.. Liddat oso good for u la.. Else if i alwaz so crazy u sure cannot take it.. lol.. he oso good lo.. whole nite kip listening to my rubbish.. kip mentioning him thou ya tried very hard to console n suggesting ways for me to zi wo an wei.. not on purpose de.. juz tat it reali hooked up alot of memories of him n me.. those happy moments together.. *smiles* din noe lw can be so zi lian leh.. bu cuo mah.. hehe..

OK.. im gonna be a panda in sch.. staying in sch till 9pm again.. madness..

Stressed and Slacked..

Da very FIRST day of sch n we (stephie, froggy, jH, yan, lisa) stayed back after sch to do our csad assignment.. Stayed still 9.. Madness.. Before we were about to leave da lab, i was doin some changes for da window design.. ok.. when everytink was done, froggy helped me wif it n deleting some stuffs.. ah-huh~ dere.. after everytink was permanently deleted.. den he asked if i haf save everytink properly.. ahHhh.. realised i din save anytink at all! gone~ wasted time n effort.. dUh.. so he had to help me do editing at home.. ma fan ni le.. hee..

After tat stephie n i went to c.Sq metro to buy smt.. wEee... All shops closing le.. cos itz already 10pm.. Both of us reali in slacking mode lo.. Din wanted to get home so early so decided to find somewhere to slack n crap.. We chose CoffeeBean cos Starbucks very packed n noisy.. We sat dere chat n chat.. crap n crap.. haha.. till 1130 den go off.. great.. very very long never liddat wif her le.. but dere's someone missing.. our dear Shidah.. sEs.. All seems so busy wif our own tinks n seldom haf time for one another.. Missed those great time together during sem 1.. doin n crappin all kinds of crazy stuffs everyday.. haha.. Missed da yummielicious chicken stew, I-Pop jokes, "Boy" madness jokes, goin to orchard taka n takin neoprints.. lol.. Those were da days.. I missed badly..

Omg.. tat multi-characteristic Worm.. Again! never failed to make me laff like an idiot.. Still dare say i laff like machine gun.. non-stop de.. Den say sound like telephone.. Madness.. thanz ar.. If i kena nitemare u dun nidda slp oso.. haha.. Mayb he's havin a worm fight in his dreamland now.. lol.. Wormy dreams~ U still owe me my Stingray.. Im craving for it le.. *dRools

woO~ left wif.. hmM.. 3hrs to slp.. faints~ tmr is a long long day for me..

Itz sleeping time.. *Lights out*